Jaga Hati.

It's been awhile since I last write in Bahasa. So, let's!

Jaga hati? Ingat senang ke? Okay, kau terlalu menjaga hati orang sekeliling engkau tapi hakikatnya, mereka tidak ambil peduli langsung tentang hati dan perasaan engkau. Persetankan semua, diri sendiri yang penting sebenarnya. Siapa yang bagi hak kepada mereka untuk mengguris perasaan kita sesuka hati? Siapa? Apa kau rasa hati ni senang nak pulih pabila selalu sangat diguris? Kau silap, kawan. Sebabkan orang seperti kalian lah, hati seseorang boleh berubah. Buat apa jadi baik? Terlalu baik, maksud aku. Supaya senang kau pijak? Apa guna bercakap lemah lembut jikalau dibalas dengan ayat yang menyakitkan hati? Eh, sekali lagi aku nak tanya. ENGKAU SIAPA HAH? Oh! Ingatlah, kawan. Langit tak selalunya cerah. Kelak kau tahu langit itu tinggi atau rendah.

Tired.

Yes, I'm tired. Tired of people's bullshits, dramas, being backstabbed, being hurt, being good & tired of everything to be exact. What kind of friend would let their friends getting into trouble without even bother to ask "are u ok?" to them? Are you even have a heart? When your "friend" wanted your help, you would willingly help without asking for something in return. But, as for them. If yourself, the one wanted to ask for help, they could simply ignored you. Letting you face it alone and some people would just laugh seeing us struggling. I'm so tired of being nice, I've changed into someone else and I acknowledged that. No need to tell me that I've changed. I've changed because of my past and people around me. They always thought that I would go with their flows, talking to me like I've no heart feelings, ordering me around like FUCKOFF! Who the hell are you to tell me what to do, shitheads? Damn. I'm so done with this kind of people. I will never let anybody ordering me around anymore. No, not for a second change.