21 Guns.

When it comes to personal life, I must say that I'm blessed that I've such amazing people around me whenever I'm in troubled or when I'm going through the toughest phase in life. Not to forget, my family that will be always be right behind me no matter what. They're my soul, my life and my everything. These people are amazing, when I'm having my breakdown moment, they chilled me up with encouragement words.

"When you're at the end of the road

And you lost all sense of control

And your thoughts have taken their toll

When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul

Your faith walks on broken glass

And the hangover doesn't pass

Nothing's ever built to last

You're in ruins" - Greenday's 21 Guns

I've gone through the toughest phase in my life, it was when my younger brother admitted to ICU's . Not gonna lie, but it was a saddening moment and I cried so hard watching my brother lied  helplessly and unconsciously on the bed. It breaks my heart apart seeing my own brother in that kind of condition. By seeing my mom sad was another case of it. My mom didnt cried in front of us even though we all knew deep down, she's not that tough. Being the eldest is tough as I must be strong to endure whatever consequences that might happen. What I can say is, tell the people you love that you love them. Don't neglect them in whatever situation. 

When the time comes.

It's been a while since my last post, there're too many stories I would like to write in here. I've been gone through a happy, sad, depressed and at lost moments past this year. People said we must be strong and have to endure everything that occured in our life regarding whether it's a happy or sad moments. I must say that I'm not a good state right now, everything's a mess. I hate this situation that I'm having right now, which is I can't control my emotions very well. Being a hot-tempered person is very stressful as I don't know how to prevent myself from being mad at someone who's getting on my nerves. I can't even talk or look at that person after what had happened few weeks ago. Because of that person, I had had a mentally breakdown for few days and caused me troubled. And I'm gonna make sure, he's going to regret for he had caused.